Some feelings~

Is already 47 days after the confess...At first i really don't want to write anymore about the confess matter but i can't. Keep it inside the heart is really killing me. This week most ppl think that I have been recover from the sadness. Haha... but actually not at all. Not to say not happy or what. I'm happy that i can in love with her. Just the feeling really don't feel well. Kind of something stuck inside the heart. Don't know what to do or what to say. Is like i'm lost in the jungle. Or i'm too scare of losing her. Too scare of looking her holding hand with another guy. I never felt that intimidate before...
Most of the day after the confess i can't sleep well. Every night staring at the star and make stupid wishes by my own. Sometime even worst. Staring at the sky waiting for meteor for whole night just to make a wish. What to do?? You get blind when you in love. I never regret on whatever i done to her, instead i felt happy in doing it.
When you in love with someone, that person really can change your personality. Something that u never think of you will like it but now, u just like it without reason...Kind of funny when i think back...
But for now, we still are good friends...Just wish the way I treat her now won’t make her feel uncomfortable.
Kind regret on what I have done in the past…Some time I really hope we can start all over again…Just ignore my impatient in the past. Let’s give me a chance to confess again. Whether the result is what, I will take it slowly…For now, I just want to treat her as good as I can. Hoping to see her happy all the time…

Happiness important than result or opposite?

Today i did not study much even though i spent most of the time in library.
but some how, i kind of happy even though i did not study much...
kind of enjoying the time in library with some special good friends...
Hmm...... i was wondering, is the result important or the process???
result is good or bad we really can't control it, but the experience we gain from the process is much more important and is priceless....
"RESULT IS NOT EVERYTHING"
This two week will be a tough week for all the people, but just wish u guys can enjoy the process of learning... dont make urself stree up until u get freak out with sth. just try r best will do.... Gd luck~

Best Wishes!!

After tonight, the war of knowledge begin~~
This semester i really did not try my best in whatever subject i took. Thought i can start focus on my study during the exam week but seem like my exam week just gone like that because of the symposium!! Kind of regret in wasting all my times for all those stupid useless meeting. Especially when waiting all those leader to come in time~~head never be punctual before, what they expect from the subordinate??
Aiks~~just can't forget about what happened in symposium!!
whatever it is, just wish all my fellow friends can get a flying colour result in this final examination.
If you don't want to feel regret in future, just try your very best in this exam.
We can't change our past, but we can change our future.....
LET"S ADD OIL TOGETHER!!!!

Sweet dream~~

yesterday night i have a very very sweet dream. Kind of don't want to wake up because of this dream...haha
the dream is about my wedding~~LOL~~But is a sweet one~~really really sweet...
i dream of my frens celebrating the wedding with me, help me preparing all the stuff, my parents all get crazy because of my wedding, but most important is the girl who get married with me...
my dream never get this sweet if the girl is not her......Pai seh......haha
Really wish one day this dream can come true~~~haha, suddenly think i'm kind of childish~~
But i think most people will become childish when thinking of someone u love~~
Seriously, i can't wait to sleep now so that i may get a tiny chance to dream back the dream...haha...
PLEASE LA "CHOW GONG", let me dream dream my yesterday dream la~~~~~~

The End~~

at last~~the symposium has come to a conclusion.
Whether it is a failure or success event, who cares??
but in this event, i really learn a lot of things, i see the evil side of a person....and etc.
Hmmm......seem like this event causes a lot of problems to us.
friendship broken, arguement, divided into group.......haiks~~~
really sick of this semester~~~
too many things happened on me!!!!
I never feel that tired and emotion before since i enter uni.... This is the first time.
I think there's no turning back between the friendship...

symposium~~

Tomorrow will be our symposium day. but seem like many thing still haven't settle down.
budgeting problems,politics,financial,junior relationship and etc.
Hmmm....i guess tomorrow will be a failure for us.
and the dinner.......i don't even dare to think about it.
i think what we can do now is not preparing the dinner or thinking of how to carry out our duty well, all we need to prepare now is an explanation to lecturers and Dean~~
for joana group members, please be patient. i know the distribution of the sponsor is unfair to us, but for now, there's nothing we can do. just wait until the symposium finish first.
i believe if we stick together as a team, i don't think the others can take advantages from us.
just be patient for now... no matter what, we will get back what we deserve......
Haiks......instead of worry about the money, why don't we just focus on our final examination first.
don't let this problems affect our performance.....Let's add oil~~especially Diamond group members~~GOGOGO~~~LOL

Begin-process-Ending

2 more days to go, our symposium will begin. 5 more days to go, our final exam start. haiks~but i still haven't finish my assignment and presentation. and even worst, i haven't start my study~~
last time i usually went to library to study, but this semester....NONE
OMG~~why I'm so lazzzyyy~~~
I'm always thinking of graduate as a first class student together with yt and sl. i keep on pushing myself to the top during the past semester....Hmmm....but seem like giving up de~~~
I think first class is only for those who clever and hardworking...... and i don't think i have this both criteria to become a first class student...
AIks~~ what to say, I'm just not the kind~~haha.
But I'm ok with it. I happy to be here and i never expected i can come so far.
For me, it's more than enough and i have nothing to hope for anymore...
just wish i could try my best and i wish all my coursemate can get a great score in this coming final exam too.
whether we have any conflict or misunderstanding in the past, all i wish is, be yourself, don't compare with other, your target is you but not the others....
anyway, all the best to everyone~~~ Let's add oil....
1 more year to go and we can wear the "jubab"....haha....
i adi feel excited now~~~can't wait for that day~~don't know i will cry anot leh??
haha~~

Diamond Group 在此~谁挡~~杀啊~~~~~~

The shadow seem weak~~but the relationship inside are stronger than u expect~~

doesn't matter~

seem like there are number of frens visiting my blog this few days.
i'm happy that u all worry about me......but i'm totally fine now.
i just called her and express everything inside me.......
for now we are frens.......for future.....no one knows.......and i think i dont have to rush for answer anymore. for now, i just have to wait the destiny come to me~~
For now, i just wish she could stay happy and we still can be best frens like we did last time....hanging out, talk to each other when unhappy, share everything....etc...
today, i realize that there are something we dont have to express it out to other ppl or blog.
sometimes, keep in inside is more beautiful than express it out.
for all i want to say now is, i'm still the same, and i still caring about her, still that love her forever and ever...but wheather i can get her or not....it doesn't matter anymore....as long as she happy.......i don't mind weather i'm the mr. right or not........



With Love:
David Tan